This post has the potential to make me very nervous and vulnerable, but I'm going to post it anyway. Realising that I'm opening myself up to my pet hate - America mud-slinging, I'd like to consider my choices.
Day in and day out I live with personal questions and rude comments that are no-one elses business - all this because my accent is different and my passport is blue. "what are you doing here?" "why would you want to leave America?" "why do you talk funny?" "that's not how we do/say it here" "are you from the Republic?" "when are you leaving?"
Then there's always the country abuse, disguised as personal - as if it was my personal choice to be involved in a war and to not sign up to emissions and Kyoto.
But then no one ever really thinks about Americans voting for their own country and not for the world. Have you ever wondered how much impact your life will make on the world?
As you choose your next President, the world will watch as the most powerful job in the world peacefully changes hands. In 2008, you will choose the man or woman who has the best vision of America's future and of your role in the world.
All of us, in every country, will be affected by the choice you make."
No one tells you when you're voting you either help your country or help other countries. No on outside ever admits of any good coming out of America - no world news headlines discuss the aid brought by American organisations or even by American soldiers.
So what are we to do? Where is our first responsibility? To America? Or the rest of the World? Do I choose the foreign policy or the internal? Why aren't there Presidents who have both? Why will no outsider admit that perhaps there is some good that America does amid all the bad? Do I choose a war in another country or an pro abortion bill?
You sit there and criticize, but do you vote in your country?
You sit there and criticize, but does your country only do good?
You sit there and criticize, but what are your foreign policies.
I sit here a weep, and pray our decision maker can guide America wisely, and aide the world as well. But which moral dilemma is worse - the one that kills thousands of Americans or the one that kills thousands of others?
How can I choose?