thinking and new things

right, so it's been ages since i've written anything here. not that i've nothing to write, but that i've so much in my head i don't even know where to begin, middle or end.

plus, i had someone whose thoughts and life i greatly respect and admire tell me that they sometimes read what i wrote. it threw me for a bit. since then i've been thinking a lot of what i write here and why i do and who reads it. initially it was only a dumping ground for my thoughts and a place for my family to see a glimpse of my life. now it's become a random place of pictures, bits of my life, thoughts, pain, and sometimes frustrated ranting.

i suppose, really, anyone who puts anything on the net must assume that anyone can then gain access and read what is there. and perhaps a bit naively, i assumed that no one was looking who i didn't know was looking.

periodically people have mentioned that this is a place where i am very personal with what i write and i've questioned that - i guess it is, but i've not specifically intended it to be. i wonder have i given an impression of myself that isn't accurate - not untrue, but inaccurate?

so the plan is to try and be a bit more consistent with writing. they probably still won't be "updates" but at least i'll try to vary them a wee bit more.

so here we go. maybe it'll be a bit of a change, but then again, as i analyse myself and the bits and pieces are here, it'll just be the same, and what you're getting is the reality of who i am.